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Healing Yourself: The Naked Truth with Joie Cheng

  Some of us go through difficult moments in our lives where we feel that the only thing left to do is count down the seconds until it is all over. We beat ourselves up along the way by having negative thoughts, forgetting to show kindness to our very own selves....

#MeTooWhatNow – Overcoming with Ed Squire

  The statistics are mindboggling. In the United States alone, there's an estimated 60 to 70 million survivors of childhood sexual abuse. In Canada, the estimate is 10 million. Ed Squire is a part of that statistic. As a survivor, the abuse destroyed the majority...

Life’s Challenges – Divorce, Death And Rebirth with Lisbeth Tanz

  How we are able to handle life’s challenges measure the strength of our character. Life has not been easy for Lisbeth Tanz, a nonfiction book ghostwriter, editor, and author coach, but she has managed to push through the many curveballs thrown in her way....

Overcoming Dysfunction with Angela W. Stillwell

  There is no such thing as a perfect family, not even an impeccable childhood. Some may argue that there are, but people from a dysfunctional family will totally differ. Every human being has a different past or childhood experience. Angela W. Stillwell, the...

Overcoming Life’s Challenges with Joy Idries

  When you are overcoming challenges and adversities in life, it’s either you finish strong or you come out weak. In the end, what you get are lessons that mold you and armor you for the next battle. These challenges, be they life-threatening or life-changing,...

Broken and Unbroken – Madeleine Black’s Story of Resilience

  It takes a lot of courage to find the path to resilience especially when you have gone through a very traumatic experience. Madeleine Black, an international speaker, author, and psychotherapist, shares her healing story when she chose to forgive the men who...

Getting Your Feng Shui On with Kim Julen

  There is energy in everything. For things to flow in your life, you need an environment that energetically supports it. For Kim Julen, founder of Finding Your Fiji, that is achieved through Feng Shui. She is a dynamic thought leader, speaker, and Feng Shui...

Improving Education with Dr. Aaron Smith

  Investments in children usually begin with education. That's why Dr. Aaron L. Smith, STEM and workplace readiness expert and best-selling author of Awakening Your STEM School, maintains his stand that education should be improved and has to be taken to the next...

Building Wealth And Bringing Value By Taking A Leap Of Faith with Carey Green

  Sometimes we have thoughts and ideas that we can't find the courage to take action on. This hinders us to reach our absolute potential to live our life to the fullest and limits how we impact people in the most beneficial way for them. Life coach and former...

Ashley Berges Living Life

  We sometimes take for granted what we have and live our life in fear of tomorrow. But if you are a person who understands life's uncertainties, you want to make the most out of every moment of your life. Mentor, life coach, psychologist and modern-day...

Makena Sage Lumina Life Coaching

  We always want to find where in this world do we really belong, where do we fit in with our passion and purpose in this world. Makena Sage, creator of Lumina Life – a global life coaching and retreat company, tells the story of how she had it all until she felt...

The Journey Of A McDonalds Girl with Jill Raff

  At the end of the day, business is all about serving your customers and being good at it. Jill Raff, CEO and Founder of The Jill Raff Group and an experienced customer experience strategist, shares her journey and passion for customer service as she lets us in...

My Ten Year Love Affair

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How do I even start to explain how I had an affair? How do I explain how my heart was captured and held captive for almost ten years? It’s very difficult and heartbreaking to delve into. There is not an easy way to explain it; you just have to do it, so here is my attempt.

I first laid my eyes on her one sunny April day back in 2004 in San Antonio, TX. She was what I called at the time the four B’s. Big, Black, Bold, and Beautiful! No other words were needed to describe her. She was all that and more. What every man could ever want and need. Just one glance at her and she had you. She was a real head turner; no matter where we went over the years people had their heads on a swivel trying to get a better look at her.

We would walk into a room and everyone would stop, stare, and then move towards us. She attracted the meekest of children to the most powerful of men. I guess you could say she was captivating. She was not only beautiful but also very intelligent with a huge vocabulary, one that would impress even the staunchest of doubters. Oh how I fell for her, hook, line, and sinker! This is not to say she didn’t have her faults, just as we all do. She could overeat and when she drank she slobbered. Her flatulence could kill an army, but her kisses always left you feeling good about her, which further captivated my heart. Our relationship grew by leaps and bounds through many experiences, some difficult and painful, some so beautiful they defy description. One such memory I have of her is when my granddaughter, Tori, was learning to read. The two them would sit on the living room floor with books spread out everywhere. Tori would say, “I read you, I read you!” And she would watch Tori lovingly with the interest of a mother watching her child blossom.

Memories galore flash through my mind now. Oh how dearly I loved her. We shared so much together. She was such a big part of my life; she was with me for births, deaths, joys, and sorrows. The biggest joy for me was her instinctual ability to know when I needed her. She had a sense about her and knew when it was time to soothe, to protect, to defend, and when to love. What a joy to have her in my life but as things go through a natural progression there is a time when you have to say goodbye. As hard as it is to let go, you know in your heart and soul that you must, it is the right thing to do!

This is what I will always have in my mind’s eye as a memory. When she was young she would lay on the floor with her legs spread out before her and place her head down. Those big black eyes would follow you around, head never moving just those two big beautiful eyes following! So on February 1, 2014 she laid her head down between those gorgeous legs and went to sleep for eternity. Heartbroken but ever so thankful that she and I got to experience the greatest sorrows and joys of my life together. What a blessing she was in my life and my family’s life, adding so much and asking so little in return. I will miss you and love you forever. I want you to know that I appreciated every moment God granted us together. Goodbye my sweet baby Chloe!